Day 4- Slow and steady...

Day 4- Thursday 21st June

Hey you gorgeous beauties! 

Firstly, I am sorry for the lateness of my blog. But, my little shepherds pie with rich onion gravy.... Oops no! I mean my daughter had a few bits and bobs to do for school. And I am at a loss with blogs, vlogs and 'The youtube' (as my daughter thinks I call it).

At 8am, I woke up pretty fresh and strangely not hungry. Im still laughing from the night before advert about the new venus for curves. Why they use a skinny, boobless model to promote curves is beyond me. Now I would go out and spend money on a razor that could get in my curves. (crevices)😆 Plus side of this morning, my skin is feeling hydrated. Thats gotta be good.

At 11am I was just preparing my first shake of the day, and I decided to make the hot chocolate variation. Extremely yummy as always! It filled me up, along with two glasses of water and a cup of coffee. (for a good half an hour :P)

I went out to do a few bits and bobs and if you watch my vlog, you will hear me moan about how many people you see eating outside. I hope you don't see me on crime watch as I looked very strange staring into peoples mouths with tears rolling down my cheeks. LOL. Believe me when I say this, if I can bite my lip and not give in, you all definitely can! Normal afternoon grub would've been at least two pasties, a baguette and two doughnuts, washed down with a diet coke. But I didn't, and by god am I proud of myself. The pain I felt today will be the strength I feel tomorrow.

At 3pm, I decided on a fake-flurry, strawberry flavour. It really does taste like a proper milkshake! Im well impressed. I had to laugh to myself because I was promising, if I stuck to this for four weeks, I am going to have a day of whatever I want to eat. I just hope at 28 days in, that that won't even matter anymore. I put my cup on the floor and my pork chop (you know I mean the dog LOL) was just about to stick her tongue in and get my last bit. Oh no you don't lady!! Ill fight for this.

At 5pm, whilst watching den of thieves with Gerard, the gorgeous, sexy butler, I decided I needed something meaty after seeing him topless. Soooooooo, I had an oxo cube with lots pepper, for a tasty, beefy drink. It quelled my hunger but didn't extinguish my desire to.... never mind, I best not go there, Gerard might be reading this ;). 

At 8pm, I had my Irish cream shake, made like a hot chocolate. And I can honestly say, its 100 times better this way. I find I'm getting tired quite early on, but I suppose thats to be expected. Im still feeling very positive and motivated and I love the fact that my experiences are making people laugh as well as learn that we are in this together. TOILET is not the problemo I thought it was going to be. All is going well.

Feeling of the day: STRONG!

Quote of the day: If you've lost your appetite, I think I found it!

Day 3- I'm HANGRY!!!

Day 3- Wednesday 20th June

Hey you beauties! 

Today was pretty strange. I woke up at around 7:30am and thought how the hell am I not dead? I haven't eaten for 3 days and I didn't wake up hungry! I can feel my hay fever playing up today so that is going to be one downer I think. But onwards and upwards, sneezing is keeping our body moving. I am going to class it as exercise. 

I planned on having my breakfast shake at 11:30am so I thought I had plenty of time to sort out my car insurance that they have been getting wrong for months. Unfortunately, they were the first to receive the wrath of the hangry dieter. Purely because I had been kept on the phone for 2 hours and every 5 minutes, I could feel myself getting hungrier. So after ripping poor Ian a new one, I eventually got my first chocolate shake of the day... at 2pm. I drank it that fast that it could've been any flavour. 

At about 3:30, I decided to venture out to get myself some ice to make my fake-flurry. But thinking now, it was the best idea to send someone else as all I could think about was a Mars bar. If I would've gone shopping it would've been the same old cherry 'the 7 Mars bars I ate walking around the supermarket don't count' :P It is very very true. Never go shopping hungry. 

At 4:30 I had my cookie and cream fake-flurry and Oh My Goodness Gracious ME!! It was fab. Check out my vlog on My youtube channel and see how I was that excited that I spilt half of it on myself. In my opinion, having a shake this way is so much more filling than with just water. I think I kidded my brain (doesn't take much). 

I don't seem to be peeing as much today (TMI) which is good for my knees. But, wind is getting more of a problem 😷 But we must take the rough with the smooth and I am becoming more accustomed to my therapeutic tummy rumbles.

At 8:30 I thought 'what the hell?' and really pushed the boat out. I made myself...A HOT CREAMY CHOCOLATY SMOOTH SWEET BEAUTIFULLY SATISFYING CHOCOLATE... shake. I read on the facebook page to make it up as you would cold before putting it in the microwave and finally adding a small splash of cream (boiling water 😥) It really doesn't take much to kid my brain. But honestly, it was superb. You definitely wouldn't know it was a shake.

I haven't been to the TOILET yet so I'm hoping this isn't going to be a problemo. We just have to wait and see.

Feelings for today: HANGRY!!!!!! 

Quote of the day: People who go out for food and get a fookin' salad cannot be trusted EVER!!!!!

As always... Catch you later beauties! <3

Please leave me some nice comments so I know what else to chat about next time. 

Day 2

Day 2- Tuesday 19th June

Hey my beauties! Here is my new instalment of my skinny saga. 

This morning I woke up quite fresh. I was feeling very positive (well not very, just positive) that today is going to be a productive easier day than yesterday. Oh boy was i wrong.

My first milkshake was at 12pm, again... Irish cream. I feel the need to get rid of this flavour as quick as possible. I read that blending ice with the shake makes it thicker. I doubt very much its going to be a maccies but I'm gonna give this a shot tomorrow.

At 1pm I was back on facebook looking at the before and after photos. Sometimes I feel a little bitchy (don't we all) by thinking and saying out-loud 'Thats not a noticeable weight loss after drinking 3 shakes, a bathtub of water daily and brushing your teeth 18,000 times to relieve hunger pangs (it doesn't work but my teeth are whiter)' LOL. ONLY JOKING! I admire my new friends who are well into their journey. Just because I was feeling pissed off and nouty and because I am so new into it don't be fooled  because these people I have been looking at are a massive inspiration. As soon as this positive thought entered my head, low and behold, on my newsfeed a cheese festival is coming to Manchester.

KILL ME NOW!!!!!!!

On a serious note, I'm sure I read somewhere that cheese is just, if not more, addictive that cocaine. AHHHHHHH!!

At 2pm this afternoon, I had to take myself off to my bedroom. The reason behind this was my poor beautiful doggy was looking like a steak. JOKING! Truthfully, I had a tremendous headache which I now think is due to not drinking enough water. I had a nana nap and woke up with the feeling of 'who gives a s*** if I'm fat anyway, who's gonna love me any less.' 

My stomach: No one cares honey! just fill me up!!!

My brain: What the hell are you thinking!!!?? LOL

I laid here thinking about how important body image is to dieters, when really this is a secondary bonus to the health benefits of weight loss. 

It's a very touchy subject for me as my sister died at 39 from anorexia nervosa and since then I find it a little scary to be hung up on weight. This is why I will go off how I feel, my body shape and how my clothes fit instead of jumping on the scales 8 times a day making things so much worse.

Its 5:30pm and I'm drinking my second vanilla flavoured shake of the day. My headache has gone and I'm feeling pretty positive again. I think the dog is safe now LOL. I'll put my last instalment on later. Im sure I've lost weight off my feet as my slippers are feeling proper loose. WOOHOO! Time for my celebratory water.

Its 8:30pm and I've just had my delightful strawberry milkshake. It's got to be one of my favourites, its heaven in a shaker cup. 

Im feeling quite excited tonight as I've just found out I can have one oxo cube in boiling water as a drink. Im actually drooling at the thought of this game changer. At least its one way of getting the taste of beef back.

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Quote for the day: Every cloud has a silver lining, every oxo cube as a silver wrapper.

Thanks for reading! Leave me some kind comments and as always, catch you tomorrow!

Introduction and Day 1

About me...

Hey you gorgeous beauties! This is me. Diana Robinson, 48 years old, living in Manchester, suffering from hypothyroidism, tired, fat and depressed... But now its time to change. I watched a TV program last week, about VLCDs, which prompted me to open up my dreaded cupboard, which contained a carrier bag full of meal replacement shakes. As I brushed off the cobwebs, I remembered how hard this journey is going to be. So I thought, with the help of my daughter, I would jot down a few of my feelings each evening as I delve further into the depths of starvation. ONLY JOKING! I'm gonna let you guys into my inner most thoughts as the days go on. I say days because weeks seem to long to even think about at the moment! :) 

Day 1- Monday 18th June 2018

This is 10 days after my daughters wedding and seeing myself looking like the fookin' cake in pictures, I had gotten myself very upset and realised it was time to change. I have a great relationship with food. I love it and it loves me ;) but I know we need to part ways for a while. (It's not food... its me ;).)

The first shake I had was Irish cream. I held the shake off until around 11:30am until i couldn't stand it anymore and hoped the luck of the Irish was on my side. 

12pm I was already on the exante facebook page looking for inspiration. God help me. This is only half an hour.

At 3pm I had a strawberry shake which strangely enough tasted a lot like the first! I think my stomach is elated at the thought of more liquid. Unfortunately, my brain isn't. Already drank 4 glasses of water and probably lost 7lbs running to the loo for my noumerous wee's. 

At 7pm I cracked open a goddamn chocolate shake to drink whilst watching England play in the world cup. Bare in mind, this was after an hour and a half of watching and torturing myself with 'Come dine with me', shouting at the TV when they're complaining about dry beef (when I could've swallowed the whole cow). I celebrated Englands win with a nice glass of water, a ten minute shower whilst I lied to my stomach that i wasn't starving. I get in bed and the sound of my rumbling stomach lulled me to sleep.

Overall feeling of today: Hungry, still laughing and can't believe I don't have a six pack yet.

Catch you all tomorrow!

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